Put me at ease

I'm sitting up in bed in my hotel room in Palo Alto.  It is quiet.  The girls are lying in the bed beside mine fast asleep (finally).  And, well, hubby fell asleep before the kids did. This is the first time I've had a chance to truly relax and reflect in peace and solitude, and even though I'm in a strange place and a different bed under not-so-great circumstances, I am surprisingly serene.

The day was laden with stress, packing, and making quick last-minute arrangements to get here.  It was pretty chaotic.  So much so that as I lay here awake, I'm shocked by my mental focus and general ease.  It's a far cry from yesterday, so I plan to enjoy this moment for as long as I can, for I am sure it is only a matter of time before I feel like I am going into a tailspin all over again.

P.S. I discovered the latest album by Needtobreathe just yesterday. Since then, I've already listened to the album in its entirety several times.  It's that good.  It's perfect for times like this where I am feeling contemplative.  And well, I just love this song.  It strikes a chord in my life and just feels very personal to me.  As such, I have no choice but to share.

Something Beautiful

by Needtobreathe

In your ocean, I'm ankle deep
I feel the waves crashin' on my feet
It's like I know where I need to be
But I can't figure out, yeah I can't figure out

Just how much air I will need to breathe
When your tide rushes over me
There's only one way to figure out
Will ya let me drown, will ya let me drown

Hey now, this is my desire
Consume me like a fire, 'cause I just want something beautiful
To touch me, I know that I'm in reach
'Cause I am down on my knees, I'm waiting for something beautiful
Oh, something beautiful

And the water is risin' quick
And for years I was scared of it
We can't be sure when it will subside
So I won't leave your side, no I can't leave your side

Hey now, this is my desire
Consume me like a fire, 'cause I just want something beautiful
To touch me, I know that I'm in reach
'Cause I am down on my knees, I'm waiting for something beautiful
Oh, something beautiful

In a daydream, I couldn't live like this
I wouldn't stop until I found something beautiful
When I wake up, I know I will have
No, I still won't have what I need

Hey now, this is my desire
Consume me like a fire, 'cause I just want something beautiful
To touch me, I know that I'm in reach
'Cause I am down on my knees, I'm waiting for something beautiful
Oh, something beautiful