I've all but abandoned my written presence on my poor blogs, and that kind of makes me sad. Bad, bad me. However, the reason why I have actually makes me very happy, so alas I can't be too disappointed with myself.
I haven't had much time for anything since the start of my business. A lot of time that I used to spend pondering and contemplating life has quickly been absorbed by the frantic work of my hands, parenting, packing, and training for my first half marathon in May. Any time that I have left to think is consumed with thoughts about running the business.
However, I have had enough time to figure this much out: I am a lot happier with my life right now than I was last year. The crazy thing is that I'm not sure that anything in my immediate surroundings have changed. I still face many challenges on a day-to-day basis that try my patience or my strength. But the fact of the matter is that something INSIDE of me has changed. Not to say that I have stopped caring about the things that used to weigh on me, because I'm sure deep down inside it still exists somewhere, but I've failed to pay attention to it as of late. And as unhealthy as that may sound, I can't deny the fact that I am just happier.
Perhaps there is some truth in "The devil finds work for idle hands to do." Not so much literally, but I have found that my free time leads to feelings of unhappiness more often than not. So I'm glad that I've been blessed with being busy, no matter how insane it can feel at times.
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