Year in review

The end of the year is always about taking a moment to reflect.  Things that you've accomplished, stuff that has happened, people you've met, and wishes and hopes for the coming year.  And like any other, this year is no exception.  I am filled with awe when I think about 2009 -- how despite how fast it seems to have passed, there were so many changes taking place within me and around me.  If someone asked me at the beginning of the year if I envisioned myself where I would be at the end of the year, I would have to say, "Not quite."  Not in a bad way.  It's just that it's been more unexpected and emotional than I would have ever thought.

I have made mistakes.  I laughed.  I cried.  I loved.  I have taken long strides.  I set new goals. I accomplished them. I have come a long way.

Granted, this year was more challenging than others in recent past.  Raising two toddlers is not an easy feat.  Neither is losing thirty pounds. Both have taken lots of hard work, dedication, and love for my kids and myself.  I learned to push through the pain and the insanity.  And sometimes, no matter what I do, I still feel like I am going crazy.  That will probably never change.  Nevertheless, I am grateful for every day that I am given to strive, persevere, embrace, and cherish.  

I know the coming year is bound to present new challenges, and definite changes.  Each year does.  But more so than that, I have a feeling that 2010 is going to be a defining year for me, and not because it's the year that I turn thirty.  I can sense that new levels of self-discovery are on the horizon.  Sure, there will always be uncertainty.  My life is everything but predictable.  But that doesn't change my willingness to accept what comes my way.  I look forward to seeing what's in store for this crazy thing we call my life.