Bring on the change!

I am not who I was a year ago.  I am not who I was six months ago.  Heck, I am not even who I was a month ago.  I am busier, determined, and focused.  Things that used to preoccupy me, barely phase me anymore.  All feelings have been pushed aside and have made way for more important things.  And while that may not sound healthy, I think it is really good for me.

I knew this year was going to bring about a lot of changes in my life -- I just wasn't sure how.  But when I decided to go into business with my sister, and KNITWORTHY started to come to life, it became more obvious that perhaps what I was searching for this whole time was a new-found purpose.  Of course, taking care of my girls is still important, but I've gotten a glimpse of some really positive things the past few weeks.  Becoming an entrepreneur and being able to still stay at home with my kids has given me the best of both worlds.  And, for now, I wouldn't dream about giving that up. 

Unfortunately, that makes me a bad blogger. 

Changing with the tides

So it's now several days into the new year, and already I can feel changes taking place around me.  Perhaps they've been there and it's only now become obvious as I now have more time to reflect and soak in things that are happening, but nevertheless, I can feel it.

It all started with a swarm of ideas that have been circling my head the last couple of days, and trying to figure out how to make sense of it all and make them take flight.  I am still uncertain about that, but that was enough to get the ball rolling.  I started analyzing things about the relationships I have with others and started noticing that things seem different, and probably because they are.  And while these changes don't feel quite right, and in some respects, very unnatural -- I have found myself accepting these changes for what they are instead of trying to fight it, tooth and nail.

You see, I've come to this realization -- there are some things that I just can't change, and just aren't worth fighting for.  The truth of the matter is that things do happen for a reason, and even though I might not understand it, I just have to trust that it is for the best.  It's called taking a leap of faith -- and sometimes a giant one at that.